萊ㄦ木木 樂媽與樂樂的生活

接著，我們又碰面了

原本不肯讓自己去的，但是對自己言而無信

你看到了我，這次你懂得跟我打招呼了

那麼上禮拜有必要不回我簡訊嗎？ 幼稚

When I saw you, it was Pink telling me you were at the back of me. 

I didin't want to meet you in that occasions. I tried to hide myself but it was too late as you already saw me.

you said hi, but I didn't know how to react. maybe I care you too much and too excited to see you.

but we still didn't talk, unfortunely.

I know the fact was you didn't expect to see me there and you were there because you were looking for new girl or just relax.

anyway, i know that it's impossible for you being there because of desring to meet me.

you didn't stay too long. I was thinking to buy you a good bye drinks and then deleted all the msg and your num. 

I tried to look for you but failed. it's weird that you just came for a while then left.

I guessed you went luxe.

I was right.

I tried to call you three times but you didn't pick the phone up. I texted you but you didn't reply. 

Two things can be explained. one is you were enjoying girl and music another one just you chosed to ignore me.

anyways....

I was upset. keep drinking shots by shots... I started to feel tipssy and then got drunk. I knew I was drunk.

When Eric texted me, I found out it's time for me to leave.

you don't wanna cherish me but eric is always there to keep me accompany and keep me safe.

Pink and Rei holded me to walk to the exit.

At that moment, I saw you. you were standing at the wall by yourself.

Pink drew me to talk to you.

you ask me how come I drank that much. 

I heard Pink ask you to take care of me. you say yes.

but I kept telling Pink I don't wanna stay I just want to leave. 

you pulled my hand. ask me to stay and promise pink you would look after me.

the secrurity was there watching me and thinking to kick me out. 

you told to the secrurity saying that you would look after me again. I was happy when you said that.

although I was drunk, I still can remeber the moment.

you holding my hand bringing me to smoking area...

lighting up a smoke.... I didn't know you smoke... 

and then you asking me how come I drank that much. i said: because of you.

because of you treating me like shit.

before that you were trying to tell me you were not intend to ignore my phone. your phone ws out of battery.

and you said you went to bamboo because of you saw my msg.

you asked me if you could stay my place for one night because you couldn't find tony.

but eric was waiting outside for me. I couldn't let him stay that long for nothing.

i said no. then i left.

you didn't chase me up to check whether I were safe or not.

i pissed eric off. i felt sorry to him. he is the only one cares abt me.

although I know you called me at 5 pm, you probably wanna check if I was safe home or not. 

but.... 

I got your call at 1pm again. we talked one and half hours.

how come we still can talk that long? I was happy when talking to you. 

你說我昨晚對你很兇，我是不是很怨恨你

你又說了一推奇怪的話

at 11pm you made another call to me again.... before you hanging up the phone, you asked me be a good girl.

I didn't know how come you said tht to me again. you didn't say that to me since we broke up.

I asked you how come on the april fool's day you were so mean to me.

you asked me to forget you but you called me after two weeks.

I felt so confused.

you said you do that because you think we won't have futures. cos I don't even know I would stay in Sydney or not.

that is true... but I am not sure that you were telling the truth thoughts or not.

說真的又怎樣，假的又怎樣？

我已經不知道該怎麼相信你說的話

今天的蝸居說了一段話讓我覺得跟你很像

那段話適來形容宋思明的

應該說整段話很像在形容你和我

我正在過一段非正常人的生活，用一本書的書名可以概括

一半是海水，一半是火焰

你變幻莫測

真的像海水一樣，時而平靜祥和，時而波瀾壯闊

你會很久不來一個電話，讓我猜測你已經將我遺忘

過往的魚水歡娛，不過是過眼雲煙

又會突然纏綿悱惻，又突然來了聽電話，說幾句 讓人臉紅心跳的話

我的心，總是懸在半空中

不知道你什麼時候，會不定期的騷擾

有點擔心，又有點期待

被人愛的感覺，比苦苦追尋要好的多

有的女人就是很幸運，不必付出就有收穫

我原本已經以為我們是測底結束了就在愚人節那天

但是現在看來，可能還得歹戲拖朋一陣子

你到底想怎樣呢？一切都在你的手裡操弄著

我一點還擊的能力也沒有，傻傻的等你的下個手段

什麼時候對愛情這麼癡傻了

還是我像老天許的願望可能能實現呢？或許這個五月就會有答案了吧

老天，我需要你的應求，請您幫助我擁有他

我不想要在繼續在男人間裡打轉了